Wanked

Well last night was a slightly different experience. Saturday morning I did all the washing and ironing (I do normally do this on a Saturday as Sarah goes into town to meet some friends). In my mind this sometimes turns into a fantasy of her having sex with someone else while I do the chores (pretty standard cuckold type fantasy).

Saturday night we just went to sleep, neither of us particularly in the mood. Sunday morning woke with the horn, had it rubbed a little, but then had to get up and sort the kids out. Morning sex is a pretty rushed affair and Sarah is not keen on sex in the morning. I like having the horn and slight frot and then being denied (I have to admit).

Sunday night, Sarah went up to bed about 10:30PM and I followed soon after. Went to kiss her and continues kissing her (she wasn’t too responsive). We then had the following encounter:

“Aren’t you interested tonight?”

“Maybe, hadn’t really thought about it”

I kissed her some more and rubbed my now hardening dick up her leg.

“I can see you’re interested”.

“Should I have just gone to the bathroom and wanked myself off and left you to sleep?”

“Wank yourself off here next to me now.”

I started to stroke my cock and wank it gently, she pull back the covers to watch and rub her cunt up and down my leg. She started moaning slightly and I kissed her a little more. The I pushed up her white cotton top (she still had her standard white cotton panties on) and fondled her nipple. The I bend forward to lick and suck her right nipple. She pushed me back and pulled down her white cotton top.

“Don’t you want me to do that tonight.”

“No, you wank your cock, you can’t have my tits or cunt tonight.”

God I almost came right there and then, my mind quickly replayed a little fantasy in the context of this encounter.

She’d gone into town on Saturday, but on the way had met a female acquaintance from the local council estate (our kids know each other). This women is a bit rough and her husband is rougher. This women invites Sarah back to her house where Sarah encounters the husband who takes a liking to my wife. Sarahs female acquaintance then says her husband likes her and suggests they all go to bed. Sarah then starts kissing the rough husband and his wife starts saying “Fuck her, I want to watch you fuck the posh little bitch” (Sarah can be a bit stuck up at times). “Go on suck his cock”. He takes out cock and pushes Sarahs head down, she willingly sucks his dick, then he spins her around, bends her over and sticks his cock hard into her cunt, reaches around and start pulling hard on her tits and pinches her nipples. “That’s it” the wife starts shouting “fuck her hard, make her have it, harder, harder.” The wife then comes over, pulls Sarahs head up, grabs one of her nipples, starts twisting it and says “he’s good at fucking isn’t he?” All the time Sarah is panting, moaning and having orgasm after orgasm, her cunt being pounded by this rough guy with his large cock. She replies to the wife “Yes, I’ve never been fucked to hard or cum so much, thankyou, thankyou for letting him fuck me”. Later on Saturday she returns home, kisses me (slightly funny taste) and has a bath (strange just before lunch).

Now back to Sunday night, I can understand why I’m not allowed to touch or suck her nipple (it must still be sore) and I’m not allowed her cunt because it’s been stretched and is also still a little sore.

Hence, she’s got me wanking my cock for her to watch, knowing that she’s had a good fuck the day before. She can now watch her husband jerk his cock.

So back to reality, she then pushes up her cotton t-shirt and move over the top of me, so each time I wank her tits bank against my cock, all the time rubbing her panty covered cunt up and down my leg.

“I’m going to cum” I say, she moans and looks down. (I though she was going to take in her mouth, but no). She then watches as I ejaculate all over her tits, my belly and chest. She rolls back over and puts her hand in the mess on my chest and belly, then starts to rub it.

“Did you need that?” she says then puts my hand on her panty covered cunt and says “bring me off now”.

‘Do you want be to tidy this mess (the cum) up?”

“No, I want to touch it and smell your spunk while you wank my clit.”

So I wanked her clit through her panties, then after a while, she took my hand and put it under her panties and made me wank her clit hard (using my middle finger with her hand like I was a sex toy) all this time rubbing the cum on my chest with her other hand. Then she orgasmed.

“I wish you cock ws hard now, I really want it inside me.”

“If you wait and play with it, I’m sure I can get hard again” (I do sometimes within 1/2 hour of ejaculating).

“No I need it now, just after the orgasm. We’ve done this the wrong way around.”

“Have I left you needing more”

“Yes, but not external, internal, I need filling with cock, but this feeling will pass. Next time I’m going to have my fulfillment first and then I may let you have yours”.

YES, this is what I want I thought. Use me for your sexual pleasure in every way and then decide if I’m allowed to ejaculate or NOT.

“OK, I’d like that” I responded.

Vanilla

Nothing in the afternoon (she met someone while food shooping and kept talking, just shows how important sex is to her!).

That night once the kids were in bed asleep, I wanked her clit until she orgasmed twice (she hardly touched my cock throughout), then she pulled me on top of her and pushed my cock up her.

I fucked her for about 5 minutes, then she reached down grabbed by cock and pulled it back a bit. I asked her what was wrong she said “It’s too hard and long and hitting my cervix”. Hey there’s no pleasing some people (it’s always over hard when I’ve had a lay off for a while). She ‘throttled me back’ a little and guided by dick further up and had another orgasm. This was not a particularly comfortable of fulfilling position for me, her hand was really in the way and I couldn’t thrust deep and right up to the hilt (which I really need).

I asked if I could cum now she replied “Yes, cum now, now”. A couple more thrusts (I have quite good ejaculation control) and I ejaculated (first time of a week, god I needed it).

Pretty vanilla by any account, left me feeling pretty unfulfilled (and like I’d been just a clit wanker and dildo) but at least I had some relief (in fact I’d have preferred not to have cum and just been ‘used’ – that at least would not be vanilla). This is NOT my idea of a full and complete sex life and we certainly did not cross any lines in terms of new/deviant sex.

I must admit I like to go to bed with the little whore from my previous post, that’s the women I married, or be used just to pleasure her and not be allowed to ejaculate (thereby prolonging my enjoyment mentally, for a few days).

Very disappointed after a weeks wait, but at least Sarah enjoyed it, she said this morning she’d really enjoyed sex last night and that when I start my new job next week I should come home for lunch every now and then.

To be honest if I’m coming home to vanilla I may rather have lunch at work!

In my book fuck is not just a fuck, physically yes, mentally they are a world apart.

So welcome back to the ‘matrix’ you can start with a vanilla fuck, then next week back to an insurance company with all the other drones. Once you know what’s on the other side it’s hard to go back (or have I just been spoilt and should be grateful for what I have?).

However this morning we had a little frot and chat. I was nice and hard and asked if she’d have sex if the kids weren’t awake. She said “No she’d be too sore after last night, you driving in and out so hard”. While you might think I was disappointed, this was music to my ears. There’s me nice and hard, her cold feel on my balls, her cunt still sore from last night being teased, denied sex, with carnal knowledge of her having a sore cunt (not vanilla, hence much better).

I’ll have a semi-hardon all day, just thinking about that. Vanilla with a slight strawberry twist (IMO).

Still Nothing

Nothing last night, so went swimming. Told to pick up cranberry juice on the way back, “I can feel an infection coming on”. Just and excuse or maybe she is, but we’ve not had sex in week (well I haven’t).

But just now (coffee time) she said “I’m going back to bed this afternoon”. Which is code for I want a fuck. So what do I make of this?

Lets wait and see this afternoon, what’s in store.

Also added a link to oversexed Englishman.

Flirting

Quick update, just been out clothes shopping for me (new job next week) Sarah came with me to help.

Went into the changing area (with Sarah and the clothes) and a good looking female assistant (about 50 years old, still very nice, quite tall, and slim) checked in the clothes.

I went into the changing room and took off my top and trousers and put on the new clothes. Came out of the changing room to show Sarah (the assistant was still there and had a quick look). Sarah didn’t like the T-shirt so I took it off, there outside the changing area, reached in to get another lightweight shirt and put it on. Now I do have quite an athletic body and have been working on my belly (and it is working, especially with the kind lighting in the shop, even I thought when looking in the mirror – almost got my six pack back).

I pulled on the T-shirt and my nipples were erect and visible (so it was quite thin). THEN the assistant came over and asked if she could help. Sarah’s face dropped (not sure why) and was about to speak (probably to shoo her off) but I said “Are they wearing them tight this year” in a sort of jokey way.

She said “Well, they might not be but you definately could”. Sarah went bright red and didn’t know where to look. I said “it does seem a little tight to the assistant”. She strode over past Sarah and said “Let me see what size it is”. Sarah fumbled with the hander the T-shirt was on to see if the size information was on there, but before she could say anything, the assistant came up to me, took me by the arm, turn me around slightly (brushing her breasts against my arm) and pulled out the collar.

“Hmm” she said “Medium, you need a large, I’ll go and get one for you. Take this one off and I’ll take it back to the rack.” With that she reached down and grabbed the bottom of the t-shirt and pulled it up and over my head to I was topless. Then she had a good look at me and went off to get the larger t-shirt. I looked at Sarah and said “She’s very helpful, isn’t she?” Sarah looked at me and said “Oh yes, VERY, go back into the changing room and put those other trousers on and I’ll pass you the shirt when she comes back with it”. Which I did, I could see she was jealous and uncomfortable with this assistant flirting with me and me obviously flirting back and enjoying it.

Now this may not seem that significant (or sexy to some out there) but I love to feel attractive to other women (on a purely physical level, especially middle aged or older women). I am totally comfortable flirting with them (I find this much harder with yourer women). Strangely I also enjoyed Sarahs discomfort with the situation.

Finally we went to the checkout and the assistant took the payment, again Sarah was so uncomfortable she had to walk off and look at some of the racks (I could see she wasn’t looking at the racks in detail and kept glimpsing over). The assistant really dragged out the checkout process, chatting to me all the time.

When we got back to the car Sarah was a little frosty, but pretended I didn’t notice and drove us back home.

This is the seccond time Sarah has been frosty after seeing me talking to another women. The first time was about 3 weeks ago when I took one of out kids to play at someone elses house (single mother). A few days later my eldest came back and said he’d seen the boy I’d taken him to see. Then he said “Oh his mum said my dad (me) was really cool and good looking. The sort of guy she’s looking for”.

Now I don’t know if the kids were making this up but Sarah said “Hey I’d better watch my step and keep you happy then.” That night she fucked me like crazy, real enthusiasm, lots of aggressive wanking of my cock and then she grabbed the base of my dick and my balls and pushed my cock hard into her from behind. She was like a women possessed, panting and thrusting back hard on to me dick and grabbing the base of my cock and squeezing it to fill the end of my cock with more blood to fill her cunt. Finally I ejaculated as she had her final orgasm.

Maybe I can look forward to that tonight? But she’ll have to initate it.

No sex

Almost a week now since our last fuck fest, I’m getting a little frustrated now and really need a fuck. I’ve decided that I’m not going to initiate sex with Sarah. She’ll have to do all the initation from now on (or at least for a while).

A couple of days ago she said that she thought we’d crossed a line (IE the call me a whore line) and she’s not sure it should have been crossed. Over the last two or three months she’s also been saying that keep asking for sex all the time. I don’t think this is true, but I’m fed up of asking and her giving in and letting me fuck her. I want her to enjoy it (like the last couple of times) not just go through the motions. In fairness once we get started she’s well into it. but I always have the feeling after that I pestered and got my own way.

I’ve been reading bits and bobs on the web about female control of male ejaculation. I dare not bring this subject up with Sarah (having crossed a line and been obsessed with sex according to her) so I’ve decided.
1. Stop pestering her for sex (totally).
2. I won’t initate sex no matter how long I have to go without.
3. I will not wank and ejaculate (I may have a little wank and stoke but will not cum).
4. I will stroke her (she loves that, back, buttocks, neck and hair) whenever she wants. But will not expect sex or any form of sexual pleasure for myself (other than getting pleasure from making her happy).
5. I’ll stop asking her to wear sexy underwear (she seems to associate this with me pestering). If she want to wear it she has plenty in the chest of drawers. If not then I won’t receive pleasure from my wife dressing in sexy underwear.

Finally, I start a new job tomorrow. So no more afternoon sex because I’ll be out all day on the client site. I’m going to find this very hard.

I feel like I’m being drawn back into the ‘matrix’ to be yet another faceless drone, travelling, working, eating a crap lunch, working, travelling, getting home tired, watching crap on TV, (no sex) then sleeping.

At the moment I feel out of the ‘matrix’, able to start and stop work when I want (though I do have to get it done), eat what and when/where I want, fuck when and where I want (assuming Sarah is in agreement) (and as load as I want, hard with kids at home in the morning and night).

To me this is life at its best. But not for much longer. Maybe I’ll get lucky once this work as been completed and be able to work from home again.

Not a good fuck, but made up

Been a while since my last post. Sarah and I had sex last Tuesday, but after she said that she hadn’t really connected with me. She said I’d been moving around to much and changing positions to frequently. Looking back I think she’s right, I pulled her on top of me while licking her clit. She couldn’t really get into a good position (for her) and didn’t orgasm. I then fucked her on her back (not a good position for Sarah) and then rolled her over and fucked her from behind. Too many changes too quick. But I think my biggest mistake was not shaving (my face), Sarah like the look of me when not shaved but doesn’t like to kiss me hard (it’s too rough on her face). Kissing is very important in my mind (and hers).

Now obviously it’s not nice to be told you’re a lousy fuck and were a bit selfish, but hey that’s the truth.

On Friday 20th when I came in for Lunch (working from home in our office) to find my lunch ready but her no where to be found. Ate the lunch and went up strairs to see where she was (she sometimes has a rest in bed in the afternoon).

She asked me to get in to bed (“are you inviting me?” I asked), “Yes” she said “but I want a proper fucking this time.” Nothing like the direct approach. I went to the bathroom, washed, shaved and cleaned my teeth, then stripped off and jumped in bed.

We kissed for a long time, tongues darting and I reached around and undid her bra (she had panties, bra and t-shirt on). She took off the bra and t-shirt, then pushed my face onto her tits.

I licked and sucked her nipples until they were hard and erect. She reached down and started stroking my rock hard cock (she moaned a little when first feeling it). I rubbed her flat belly and push down over the top of her panties, they were already starting to get wet.

She pushed me back and moved her head down to my cock. Once again letting out a little gasp when she got her head near it (as if surprised at the size – 15 years of being married she can’t be surprised).
She pulled back my cock licked the head and then thrust her head right down to the hilt, the end of my cock going right down her throat (7 1/2″ of cock deep throated).

She then pushed her arms under my legs and pushed them up a little, so I had to bend my knees and lift my feet and proceeded to thrust her head down on my cock hard upto the hilt five or six times.

She came up looked at me (in the eyes) and then pulled her panties down to just above her knees, so I could see her cunt. I reached forward to push my fingers in, but she pushed me back and deep throated my cock five or six more times.

She then pulled her panties all the way off, straddled me, grabbed my cock and pushed it hard up into her cunt. She then rode my cock for about ten minutes (it was all I could do to hold on and delay ejaculating). I could see she was nearly at an orgasm and gently pulled her right nipple. That was all it took, she exploded into an orgasm and said “cum you fucker, cum now, I need your spunk in me”. Two or three more thrusts from her (I could see she was just passed the orgasm and her rhythm was going) and I ejactulated hard up into her.

“Did you feel connected” I asked, “Yes” she said “but I seem to have had it all my own way, was it OK for you.”

“Yes, I really enjoyed it.” I said.

However within 15 minutes and a few long kisses my cock was hard again (note this is not normal for me, normally after sex at night I just want to sleep, but in the afternoons I sometimes remain horny).

“I want to go again” I said reaching down and playing with Sarahs clit. She kissed me hard and licked around my mouth. “I’ll get cleaned up first if you want” she said. “No I want you like you are, full of cum” I responded.

She let out a little moan and lay there while I teased and wanked her clit, within a couple of minutes she’d had another orgasm. “Do what you want with me now” she said. I love it when she says that. I feel she’s giving me her body to use for my own sexual preasure. “I want a blow job” I said (just like that, yes wife you can give me a blow job, in my mind thinking will she just do that, when I talk like that, so direct).

She moved over in front of me kneeling between my legs and grabbed my hand and put it on my cock and said “You’ll have to wank yourself off into my mouth and then I’ll swallow your cum” and with that put her mouth just over the end of my erect dick. She then started making mmmmm, aaaah, mmmm noises as I wanked my dick up and down, the tip of which remained in or around her open mouth.

Wow I thought, my wife has told me to wank myself into her mouth and she’ll swallow it all. After a couple of minutes, I could see she’d put her hand between her legs and was playing with her own cunt again. I lent forward and pulled her hand away so I could see it. It was covered in the cum from her first fucking.

I looked at her and asked “do you need fucking again?” “yes” she replied “sucking your cock like a little whore has made me horny again.”

So here’s my nice little wife Sarah, admitting she’s acting like a whore and needing another fucking. “But you’ve not swallowed any cum yet, you have to have some cum” I said. “Will you fuck me again if I lick this cum up” she said, holding out her hand.

I pushed her cupped hand back between her legs and told her to push more of the cum out of her cunt, which she did. I looked at her cupped hand, there was quite an amount of sticky mess (my cum and her juice). “Eat it all now and I’ll fill your cunt with my cum again” I said.

That was it, she looked me in the eyes (and remained looking me in the eyes) and lapped up all the mess with her tongue all the time pushing and pulling my hard cock. When she’d finished, I grabbed her and gave her a deep kiss, tasting a mix of cum and cunt juice on her breath.

Then she said “fuck me hard now from behind and call me a whore”. She’d never wanted me to call her names before.

“Are you sure you want me to call you a whore” I said. “Yes, I want to be your little whore today, I’ve sucked your cock, ridden your cock and eaten your cum and now you’re going to have sloppy seconds, that makes me your whore.” she said.

I’ve never hear Sarah say anything like this, or even had any idea she thought such things, but my cock was fit to burst for a second time in less than half an hour.

I grabbed her by her hair at the back of her head, pulled her over to the side of me and rolled her on to her front. Then with total ease pushed my cock hard up into her cunt from behind. My cock was rock hard and full size again, but is slide in and out with complete ease (virtually friction free). There was absolutly no resistance at all (I’me about 5″ – 5 1/2″ girth and 7″-8″ in length). I could pound in and out with real pace and started to swivel my hips to get deep penetration.

All the time she was moaning and groaning. Then I could hear squelching as I pushed right in and the scent of cum was in the air (I realised I was forcing the remaining cum from the first fucking out).

“You fucking whore” I said. “She moaned and then orgasmed again. “Your cunt has been well used today you little slut, I can tell I’m not the first in here today”. With that she said “God I can’t take anymore, please don’t fuck me any more shoot your spunk all over me.”

Then I ejaculated for the second time.

After, we had a little chat and admitted to each other we’d probably gone a bit over the top. I wanted to reassure her I didn’t think she was a whore. She said she knew, but like the idea sometimes and this time it just came out. I told her I also liked the idea she was a cheap little whore and it turned me on.

But back to reality, we both knew she was no whore and that we just had a very active and passionate sex life.

TV on threesomes

Sarah and I watched a TV program on threesomes last night. Whilst some of the people in the program were a little strange (IE not my cup-of-tea on the personality side – esp the two girls and guy) we both found the issue interesting.

Now I deliberately did not raise the subject when we went to bed. I thought I’d see what Sarah would do. Was she still thinking about it or had the whole program just been of interest at the time (or just a straightforward time killer).

Well it wasn’t long before she wanted to discuss the issues surrounding the program, in fact I’d only just finished cleaning my teeth and hadn’t even got in bed with her. We then discussed the issues for about an hour, so clearly this is something Sarah has some interest in.

We discussed me with two women, she didn’t like the idea even if she didn’t have to have sexual relations with the other women. When I thought about it, I also came to the conclusion this I didn’t like the idea of two women (I know I could keep them both satisfied in the area of sex) it was the idea of another women (interfering with everything and planning ’stuff’). I do like the idea of fucking two women but women need the relationship part as well as just a good shagging. If I’m honest I only love Sarah and would be ‘just having sex with the other women’ which lets face it would not be fair on the other women. I’ve yet to meet a women who can ‘just have sex’ they may say it’s a fling or ‘it will be fun for a while’ but they always but always want you to be totally theirs (in my experience).

We then talked about her with two men (IE me and one other), this was more interesting. Both her and I decided that we would not want someone else to come in and live with us (but maybe you think that at the start and then become fond of the guy, like in the TV program).

She was a little surprised when I said that I’d actually like to have sex with her and another guy (that’s not me with the other guy, but her with both of us at the same time). This was totally unlike the TV program where the women in effect had two separate relationships (this is more in line with Sarahs thinking).

Not sure why she was so surprised about the three way shagging, but she was even more surprised when I suggested that she might like to just have another guy every now and then and not introduce me to him at all. Even I was surprised at myself, but I thought about it and it made sense to me (I would not be denying the relationship, but it would involve me a lot less). She said she could have a relationship with someone else but was afraid that he and I might not like each other and I would come abusive towards him.

The sort of guy she’s talking about (IE the type of guy she’d find attractive would not be the same as me, unlike the TV program the two guys were quite similar). I’m reasonable well educated (degree, professional etc). My wife has a Degree (first), but our subject areas are very different, she’s all arts and history and I’m all engineering and technology (and as you can see English and writing are not my strong suits). Sarah seems to have this idea she’d have someone very well educated who may look down on me (in an intellectual way) and belittle me (with words and knowledge) and I would resort to physical abuse. I think this would mean a three way shagging would also be out of the question, someone that she would find attractive would probably not find that idea acceptable.

Now I am quite physical, I have a reasonable amount of patience, but I have been known to throw a punch (other men) and I physically man handle the kids (though have never hit them or Sarah). I do this to assert my authority upon them, as I believe physical man handling (in very limited amounts) together with verbal assertion (not abuse or swearing) is the best way the discipline children.

But it takes a lot to push me to physical violence. But clearly in Sarahs mind I may become abusive to her ‘boyfriend’ which frightens her (but also seemed to reassure her, when I said I’d always protect her and would never let anyone else hurt her or hurt her feelings).

The major issue I raised that I would not and could not accept any reduction in my sexual activity with her. I would still have to be able to have sex with her when ever and where ever I wanted (just like I do now, though it does not always mean penetration). In addition our relationship would have to be the ‘primary’ one.

I think it’s these issues that are the most difficult to deal with, not the sex itself (though the theory is fine, not sure I could actually deal with it), but the time, energy and attention challenges that she’d face with two men wanting her. I really do want her in every way all the time. It strikes me it’s the practical living and time issues that would be the hardest esp with three kids.

Now back on the the issue of me being physical, it’s only been in the last year or two Sarah has ‘come out’ as wanting sexual penetration to be ‘quite hard’. This is not rough sex, spanking, smacking, bondage or anything like that, but not what you’d call gentle either. She has quite a small frame and I’m quite well built, but she really does enjoy a good hard fuck. I know because when I’ve brought her to an orgasm either by penetration or clit stimulation she’s mine. She’ll say ‘do what you want to me now’, ‘I need it hard in me’ or ‘I’m finished now, but need you to cum inside me’.

We’ve discussed this and she says that she gets a self satisfied sort of smug feeling when I’ve cum inside her. Like she’s the one that got the cum.

For me, the idea I can use her body with her permission or ‘anything’ makes me have to control my ejaculation. On several occasions now when I ‘take her hard from behind’ she will have female ejaculation on the bed. This only occurs when I fuck her cunt from behind and when she’s already had an orgasm. Once again this has only started to happen in the last year (were we fucking right for the first 14 years of being married?). Periodically when I’m thrusting I’ll grab her arse and make sure my thumb pushes hard in to her arse hole. Not deep in, but enough her her to know it’s there and I could be fucking her in her arse (which I’ll discuss towards the end of this post) if I chose to (because she said I could do anything didn’t she). More importantly she doesn’t stop me, or say anything about it after (like don’t do that again, I don’t like it).

So clearly she needs physical man handling, I do sometimes pull her around in bed and bend her over or push her head down on to my cock to suck it. It depends on the mood, but she does enjoy it when I am ‘manful’ (in her words). On one occasion in bed (I was wanking her clit) when she went to play with my cock (it was hard and ready to go) I took her hand off it and told her she’d have to wait. A little later she grabbed it again and once again I took her hand off it and said more firmly WAIT. I pushed my fingers into her cunt and she was so wet. I said to her ‘you’re really wet now’ and she responded with ‘what do you expect, I really need you to fuck me hard now’. I told her to wipe her cunt with her knickers (that she’d taken off) and I might fuck her. She wiped her cunt with her panties and went to put them to one side, but I stopped her and made her pass then to me. I then told her ‘these knickers are fucking soaking’ she responded with ‘you’d better make me wet again then hadn’t you’. I told her to keep her hands off my cock because I hadn’t decided if she needed cum in the mouth or cum in her cunt, but she had to spread her legs because I wanted to see her cunt. She reluctantly spread her legs (she does not like them wide, less feeling for her). But then she said something very very near the subject of cuckolding ‘I may need cum but it won’t be yours’. I told her to open her legs wider and then pushed two fingers deep into her cunt (it was soaking again already), I pull my fingers out and put them in my mouth and said ‘just checking you’ve not already fucked someone and their cum is still there’. With that and my thumb still on her clit she had an ejaculation all over my hand. I pulled her legs together and push my cock down between them, so my cock shaft was rubbing on her clit and cunt lips, but the head was pushing down further. With all the talk my hard-on had been fading, but with the extra stimulation it began to rise and firm up again. As I was pushing up and down quite gently, she raised her hips slightly, I was getting a lot harder now and suddenly felt something wrapping itself around the end of my dick. I could feel her tight anal sphincter until the head of my dick was just inside her arse hole. So it seems that on occasions my well educated, sophisticated darling little wife likes to fucked hard and likes it up her arse!

I enjoy her being submissive, but I like her to take control on occasions as well, she’s not really got into the swing of this yet however (but I need to discuss this with her as I need to explore this side of her and me). I also need to fuck her arse again to make sure it’s not a one off.

Cuckold Couple

I’ve added a link to the cuckold couple blog site. Not because Sarah cuckolds me (unless I’m unaware she is) but because there are aspects of me (and her it would appear) that is fascinated by this type of relationship and the fact that she has mentioned this sort of thing on several occasions.

On these occasions she’s talks of ‘boyfriends’, open marriage and even us bringing up a child that is not fathered by me, but by her and her ‘boyfriend’. She has told me of several dreams where she has a relationship with someone else, but then in her dream they are somehow transformed back into me.

At first I was taken aback by these discussions, but then thought about them more and more. However, when we discussed them she indicated quite clearly she would not be able to handle me having relationships with other women, but could handle me having relationships (sexual) with other men.

The more worrying aspect of these discussions with Sarah is that fact that there is a ‘true relationship’ between her and her ‘boyfriend’, this is not just wild and varied sex with other men, a relationship this is deep and may (probably will) involve sex. This seems to be very different from many of the cuckold sites I have seen. Most of the sites are of:

• Women becoming sluts so as to make their husbands a sissy (FEMDOM)
• Women takeing a bull so as to make their husbands a sissy (FEMDOM)
• Men encouraging their wifes to be sluts (FEM SUBMISSIVE)
• Hotwife where women are allowed sexual relationships with other men for thier sexual (and other) needs

I suppose the nearest is the hotwife category (though I may have missed some categories – experts on cuckolding please correct me). Though I believe I satisfy her sexually (maybe I’m deluding myself here, are orgasms for a women enough during sex?).

For Sarah I don’t believe her statements about ‘boyfriends’ is about sex (though that would come into play later I’m sure) I think it’s about wanting the security of the home, me and the kids, but then also wanting some excitment and interest outside of that environment. She has said she could ‘love’ more than one person, I think Sarah would have to have some love for someone before sleeping with them. But clearly this is not an NSA (No Strings Attached) type of relationship she is talking about. This would be a very String are attached relationship.

Anyway hopefully you can see my interest in the area of cuckolding.

First Entry

So here goes with my first entry in our first blog.

I’ve been rather frustrated of late not sure if it’s my age or my wifes age (both in our forties), but sex seems to have become a discussion point between us. I suppose on average we have sex two or three times a week. Like many men I’d like it more often.

Anyway on the the details and my thoughts. Woke up at around 7AM, I know my wife is not keen on sex in the morning (for various reasons, not turned on, etc). But for me it’s when I’m at my most horny. So this morning; having not had sex for a couple of days I had to ejaculate (with or without her).

For me it’s as simple as that, I absolutly must cum once turned on before I can get my head around anything. If I don’t I end up frustrated and cannot concentrate all day (or night), but strangely I’ve started to enjoy this frustration recently.

So I knew penetration would be out this morning, Sarah does do blow jobs (if her mood is right, even in the mornings sometimes, I once woke up with her mouth around my cock). When I reached over to her and stroked her (I knew she was awake) she made a few noises indicating a dry mouth (so I knew a blow job was most probably out of the question).

Now on some occasions she really is not bothered about sex at all, but if I persist she’ll throw me a few tokens of encouragement and let me wank myself off next to her. So what sort of sex is that you may be asking, you’re married (three kids by the way) and you still end up wanking.

Now it’s taken me quite a lot of time to get to this point (15 years of marriage) and for a long time (maybe 10 years I would not have wanked off in front of her, not that she ever asked me to). However as time has gone on we have become a lot more open with each other (as you’ll find out). At first I was a little put out that she couldn’t actually be bothered to even wank me off. Then I started to encourage her to tell me to ‘wank yourself off if you have to’ and she now sometimes adds in her own little twists like ‘come on hurry up and wank yourself’ and ‘I want you to cover me in cum’. It just depends on her mood. So sometimes for me wanking like this is very fulfilling.

Now in addition to these small verbal treats (and they are short and very sparing, I’d like a lot more by way of encouragement and/or teasing if I’m honest) my mind is going into overdrive. I image my wife doesn’t let me have sex with her anymore (in reality however it was just a day or two ago, but I don’t let that get in the way) and now I’m not allowed her cunt (which by the way most mornings I’m not, she’ll keep her small white panties on, but may take off her top). Some mornings I’ll look at her tits but not suck or even touch them, even though I could as I like to fuck my mind into believing I’m not even allowed that pleasure (which strangely gives me pleasure).

So what would it be this morning? She was quite awake when I stroked her ass. Things look promising I thought. My cock (8″ ish, not had a rule out to it but when erect almost reaches my belly button) was rock hard, so I took her hand (for the moment of truth) and wrapped it around my cock. I then continued to move her hand up and down the shaft to see if she would pull away or continue.

She continued, so we’re on I though, she’ll wank me off. Then I thought I may be able to upgrade to a blow job (hey that’s what I thought). I looked over at the bedroom door and noticed it still open slightly, I said I would shut it (kids still asleep, don’t want them ruining our fun). I said she should take off her top, now being a little devious I also use the opportunity of getting back into bed (I always sleep naked) to wave my erect dick around up near Sarahs tits (not big but firm with erect nipples) she quite likes this and sometime this can move on to her sucking my cock. Not today however, a blow job was out of the question.

I got back into bed and told her to change sides (so she could wank me with her right hand, she’s better with the right). As she started to roll over the top of me I held her in place, she had one leg on each side of me and pushed her still white pantie covered cunt on to my cock. I told her to stay there (which implicitly told her wank me off in that position). She moved to a more upright position, shoulders back (pushing her small but firm breast out) and started to wank me.

Now this is the bit I really like (which she does from time to time) she wanks me quite gently at first, but I’ve noticed that the tips of her finger when wrapped around my cock are rubbing up and down against her clit though her panties. So in effect she’s also wanking herself, somedays she’ll have a little orgasm like this, but on others just likes the sensation (though I have got her to admit to me that on some occasions when I’ve cum and then gone for a shower she has then wanked herself off).

Today it didn’t take too long, I was so horny and could also see she wasn’t really going for it (for herself). So back to my mind. There was this beautiful women no top on (tits out and bouncing slightly) with her knickers still on, on top of me wanking my rock hard cock. What was I thinking, I looked up at her straight in the eye and she looked right back and in my mind I thought “this is all this women will allow me, she’ll allow me to look at her tits bouncing and not touch or even view her cunt, and she’ll control my cock and when I can cum”. with that after a couple of minutes I ejaculated all over my belly and chest and a little on her fingers.

Now that’s when something strange happened, I had a complelling feeling to lick her fingers clean. She showed me the cum on her fingers (why). I sometimes want her to lick it up (she does swallow from time to time and occasionally lick my cum covered cock, but never licked it up), but today I wanted her to put those cum covered fingers in my mouth. But she didn’t (and I didn’t ask, but I will hold this thought and feeling and maybe do it next time).

Then she jumped up went to the bathroom and got so cleanex and wiped up all the spunk of my belly and chest. Normally she doesn’t do this, she seemed to quite enjoy the cleaning up for some reason, I have no idea why, but I felt quite strange about it. Was I turned on because she had to do something so menial (and to some people disgusting) or because I felt a little like a child being wiped down (hey let’s not go there, not sure I like it). Anyway I felt strange.

I then stoked her back, legs and ass for 10 or 15 minutes and then got up and made tea for us and got the kids breakfasts ready (I do that every morning).